==A breath away==

Well, I guess it is about time that I feel this way. The pain is starting to sink in even more now. Dad is NOT on a long holiday, in fact... Dad won't be coming back at all. This is the reality I have to face everyday. I'm not in denial, it's just that I seem to feel my dad's presence all the time, it's as if he is still around.

But then..there are times when I start to think, and realise that he is no longer with us. It's so quiet at home now. I miss hearing his voice. I miss you pa.

So much pain. I know you're moving on already. Going out on dates and all. It kills me inside knowing this but what can I do eh? Despite all the pain you've caused me, I still find myself caring about you. Probably because we've been together for the longest time and we shared practically EVERYTHING together. I guess it's not easy for me to let all of that go. All those memories, all those times of joy & sadness. It's hard to believe that all those times are nothing more than mere memories now. No longer something we can grasp and hold on to.

I wish you well.....

"A breath away's not far, to where you are"